Small indications

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There are small indications not actually of themselves but of what they are not. Like a lull after pushing into an object when the body falls back and feels lighter- more aerated somehow. As if the gaps between the cells had grown and the space between bodies and surfaces creates a thin layer beyond touch like the jets of air of a vacuum cleaner that allow it to glide so smoothely. The gravitational weights of giving into something- of merging and collapsing into mass are held minutely apart from this sure tendency and there is this moment of suspense. That's when the body begins to collect and seperate in a kind of meshing of voluume and levity. Posture is this reverberation between two sets of tendencies colliding and bouncing back through one another.

Working with a boy with Cerebral Palsy today it was like that. I did not have a plan of what to do- actually felt abit ill and groggy in myself so that any momentum or attitude of achievement in this or that respect could  not be imposed from my side because I literally didn't have it in me. But in that slight ineptitude as a therapist, there was this sense of taking a ride with these small indications, without being able to jump ahead to the end of the equation and realise a useful outcome in the jointings of bone and the correct usage of muscle ligaments.

Unstead there was this leaking consciousness where everything done was only done in the matter of factness of what it was and a following of where that led to without necessarily being able to see it coming or even stop it coming.

The boy is sitting on the floor pushing a swing that is hung from the ceiling. Each time he pushes, his body is stabilized, jammed between the natural leverage of this move before the swing parts company and launches out on its own. In the split second before its return something strange happens. The boy gains a buyouncy and I see his body literally swell to fill out into this aerated mass. What this means for him- between the pushing and the waiting, is uprightness. But this has nothing to do with  the deliberate learning of posture- of arduously mastering the ability to sit up straight and correct the head in relation to the cocyxic etc.. It is just this hairs breadth between the pushing and the return- known in the timed release of the swing that than knocks back at the boy as the direct reflection to his push- a push made tangible in its return thta each time jolts him slightly.

I feel sure that the problem of standing, of walking- of getting to grips with gravity and the weight of ones body in relation to that gravity can only be known in the reflective mirror of this buyouncy. The black-hole or anti-matter is never seen or known directly- but only through the circling planets and their various orbits around this ommission, like the swing bouncing on and off the body of the boy. The body can only be known in the buyouncy or timed suspension through which it experiences posture. Otherwise we would be consummed by our own heavinness or simply fly apart- as at times is the case.

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